May 2012
3 posts
2nd year gone
2nd year will be over in less than two weeks. I am going to be a junior after this summer! To be honest, I am kind of glad that so much time has passed by since first year. I am sad to see this school year go, but happy because I have cried until no more tears could come out of my eyes. That means my heart should be completely healed now…!
Now I just have to work on the website thingy and...
Last week after the Open Show, I wanted to cry because I assumed that people didn’t like my film for some reason. When I walked in the character animation hall today, I saw my name on the list of selected film considered for Donut Show. which is selected best films from the show. It made me so happy for some reason. I am glad it is getting shown at various different venues.
So yeah, Praise...
April 2012
5 posts
WHAT DO YOU GUYS NOT UNDERSTAND ABOUT THESE TWO WORDS: GO AWAY
**
Answer me this: Was there never a hint of love in our friendship?
get out of my mind get out of my mind get out of my mind!
We were praying for the film to be finished on the 20th and it did finish on the 20th. Amazing… this year God shows me He listens to our prayers and His timing is always correct
“Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.” John 21:25
What a powerful verse and a reminder of how wonderful our God is. I was working in the lab the entire day again today but I came back to my dorm early because my eyes got tired. It’s so cozy here.
...
March 2012
6 posts
不知道要喜歡哪一個
我明明不賴
他們也沒喜歡我
Joe stop reblogging me! My blog is suppose to be private
I HATE IT when i’m all motivated to work but the only thing that is pulling me back is my stomachache…. I feel so bad…. ughh…
dear God please……
Edit*
Wow, my friend prayed for me and the pain went away after I drank some hot soup. I was able to restoryboard the ending of my film and rough out another scene. How awesome is our God?!
Why is it that every time after I purchase a new ID card, I find the old ID card which I thought I lost??
There goes another $5
Praise God
Praise God for helping me cross through another mountain. It seems as though a load of burden was lifted off of my shoulder after I composited my DemoReel to be sent to ENSAD. It has been a time of great distress for me. I don’t exactly know the factor but too many things are going on and I feel like I cannot breathe sometimes.
Praise be to God. He led me through another stage and now I...
February 2012
7 posts
It was True
Today:
T: “I was wondering if you would be interested in going out someday… for lunch or coffee?”
Me: “Uhm… lunch? Coffee? in the cafeteria?”
T: “No, out somewhere.”
Me: “No, not really. Sorry.”
T: “That’s okay.” Walks away*
Geez, i’m becoming more tough skinned and straight-forward. Why can’t this...
A New Admirer Lately
Lately, I’ve discovered another admirer of mine. Since this semester, he’s been extra nice to me. Always asking me how I am doing, striking up random conversations at the most inappropriate time. He talks to me a lot and I just keep nodding and nodding without listening until he goes away.
Last friday, I wore a red coat to school and he sent me a message that same night saying...
Dear Jesus,
The battle is harder now but I thank You for being my refuge. My spirit need to transcend above this world of art making. It needs to get out of all the boxes my classmates and teachers put on me. I am beyond all of that. I am more than a film maker. I have to first seek your kingdom. Not seeking your help on my film but let me seek your face first. The success of my film does not...
“Who is that ( a gift) from?”
“My boyfriend.”
“Who’s your boyfriend?”
“Ryan”
“ohh, the one you liked since last year? The one who had a girlfriend?”
“Yeah :)”
“oh, when did they break up?”
“Uhm, November. I was super happy! :)”
“…:)…”
Super happy that the guy you...
Jesus,
I need to be stronger than this. Please come into my heart and revive me once more
“Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
Honestly, fuck Valentine’s day!
Actually, it will not be so bad if this person asks me out. Dear ******, will you be my valentine?? <3 <3 <3 Ugh… enough dreaming…
you know it’s hot, don’t forget what you got, looking back
January 2012
9 posts
It's Been a While
It’s been a while since I posted. I’m sure you were relieved to not have been able to read my thoughts.
First week of school ended and I must admit it was rather rough for many reasons. 1.) JEMS hasn’t contacted me and I have a feeling they might cancel this trip afterall. The excitement was for nothing… but I learned to always look to God and what He is doing in my life...
JEMS Thoughts
Many people asked me recently about my thoughts on JEMS and Japanese culture. Most of the time, I hear missionaries having great expectations to be used by God during the trip. However, something inside me makes me unable to say that easily. Of course I wish to be used by the Lord but I believe He will use the preparation of the trip and the trip itself to show His greatness to me even more so...
Another week passed by so fast… I thought winter break just started!? I must say it’s been a growing break for me. I am thankful for everything that happened. Currently back at home and am once again seeing the beautiful things and wonderful people that surround this small town. Saw some people on Wednesday and it made me pretty depressed. I know I needed to hear this one person out...
2012
Midnight on New Years Day, Derrick took my brother and me to the Berkeley pier to watch the fireworks. It was wonderful, a beautiful way to end the year. Moonlight and San Francisco buildings reflected on the waters. Walked on the wooden bridge in the middle of the deep waters. His Lordship had a black family party. Saxophone playing inside was lovely. I was again in an unfamiliar environment and...
“How you gon’ win when you ain’t right within”
– Doo Wop (that thing)
2011 Conclusion
I am pretty glad this year is over. It was a year of real challenge and it is ending unpleasantly also. Too bad! I guess it’s meant to be that way and this is how I am going to remember 2011. Hopefully the count down will make me happier. lol! Crying is the way to end the year I cried the most. Fucking had nightmares again. *sigh* I wonder if i’m just fooling myself with all these...
December 2011
15 posts
Berkeley Thus Far
My trip up north is about to wrap up and so is 2011. I wonder how he is going to spend the new years eve?? sigh* no time for sour thoughts. I enjoyed being in Berkeley and doing the sketches. After all the stressing out I feel like I did not get as much done as I had planned. Oh well, we always gotta give ourselves more time than expected right? Let’s see, I want to finish the kitchen...
Christmas Day
A very merry christmas today! Performing for BCCC choir was so fun this morning. The spirit was very present and it felt like a proper way to spend this special day. So much reflection and thanksgiving. I love singing beautiful church songs.
Had lunch with BCCC members, the ones close to my brother, at a delicious restaurant because mother wanted to thank all the elders for taking care of henry....
“A broken heart is not who you really are. Your are more than someones ex-girlfriend. You was more than someone’s girlfriend. “
Thank you big brother <3
=’)
needed that. I have to stop having this mindset that I am a broken hearted girl. I need to stop looking at my scar all the time. It’s there, but no need to keep on emphasizing it. No need to find someone to...
Sorry, if you don’t know already, this is a prayer log.
So yeah, I do think there’s a purpose for this winter break. Just had a meeting with cousins and aunt. Was praying before they came that they’d be comforted once they step into our house. And they were. We didn’t talk much but they loved the movie Summer Wars. I do not have great success to show, but I know God can...
Two Birds with One Stone
Yesterday after doing some devo, a time of dancing by myself, and not doing art, I met up with L and J.
I saw J first at BJs. He treated me appetizers and pozookie for my belated birthday. Our conversation was actually pretty fun, and I am glad he has made a step to explore other churches outside of TPC. I only pray that his faith will no longer be shaken because of church and that he will fully...
My BFA2 Life
looking at my oil paintings, I think to myself: Why am I in animation instead of fine arts? Why?!
I am back again, unfortunately, to the world I once hated. Hacienda Heights never fails to frustrate me. Break has started, and so far the only people who have contacted me are these two guys I had to turn down at some point in my life. AND I WILL NEVER BE ATTRACTED TO THEM, EVER! They still have...
So sad
Fall 2011 went by so fast and many people already went home. But I have some work that need to be done and I need alone time to concentrate. I think I really should be working harder but at the same time I don’t know why I should work so hard if going into the industry is not something I want. I just want to work hard to be an artist.
Anyway, this winter break I am definitely gonna miss...
just looked over my storyboards again and refined it.
I don’t think i will be able to finish this animation clip dude…. i don’t think so… :’( God, I give this to you.
Christmas Time is Here
“ I think there must be something wrong with me, Linus. Christmas is coming, but I’m not happy. I don’t feel the way I’m supposed to feel. I just don’t understand Christmas, I guess. I like getting presents and sending Christmas cards and decorating trees and all that, but I’m still not happy. I always end up feeling depressed. “
then men are small minded
and i’m small minded for stereotyping men
Jesus, please take away my burdens. Please send angels to minister to me. I believe in You. I put my trust in You. Like a little child, I come as I am. Please listen to my cry.
It seems like i’m crying over something that’s not a big deal, I’m crying over this as if someone in my family passed away, but only You understand how much pain this is causing in my heart. You know...
Dear Jesus,
I will praise you through my trials. I know I feel like I have been battling for a long time for now but sometimes seeing new pictures of them two together brings me to tears. Then it brings me very bad nightmares. Even though I am sad, I thank you for these happenings. If you led me to it, you will lead me through it. There are two ways to go about this: 1.) I can sit down, cry, and...
God is bigger than my situation, so I will just keep my eyes on Him. :)
“I know that we both have our separate lives And we don’t keep ties on each other So you can have me So that I can hold you until the morning comes Then we can go back to how things was before”
November 2011
6 posts
The Real Folks Blue
“Too much time has passed by to
lament that we were deeply in love The wind keeps blowing, while my heart cannot heal all the tears in it Watching tomorrow with one eye while keeping the other on yesterday If only I could peacefully sleep in the cradle of your love, again”
After writing the story
After writing a short story that in a way reflected my own life, I cannot get out of the plot. I keep thinking of all the characters in the story. When I wrote the story, I wanted to cry for all of them, especially the main character. Even now, I still want to cry. I don’t know why. Maybe because my story showed that everyone was just lost and empty.
Matthew 18:22
“Jesus answered, ‘I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.’”
Hits me every time no matter what circumstance I am in.
Things Aren't That Bad
So things are not that bad really. Now that I am home I feel so relaxed. so ready to eat, sleep and do nothing for a few days. No need to be afraid of flashbacks! I wonder why I was so frustrated lately. The oil in my lamp definitely ran out and I could no longer handle anything school related. Last night I didn’t sleep at all because I was dreaming of a revenge I could do. That kept me up...
God, be the first in my life
I already wrote this, but lately I have been going through many emotions. Yes, I am a very imbalanced person. This week was tough. I mean, I spoke with two teachers and they weren’t so crazy about my film idea. (shouldn’t have met with them in the first place). That was pretty discouraging, but in a way it inspires me to think outside of the box for the design of my film style. So it...