So much time, so little to say.

I already wrote this, but lately I have been going through many emotions. Yes, I am a very imbalanced person. This week was tough. I mean, I spoke with two teachers and they weren’t so crazy about my film idea. (shouldn’t have met with them in the first place). That was pretty discouraging, but in a way it inspires me to think outside of the box for the design of my film style. So it was both good and bad. This bothered me because I know deep inside my heart I am not trying to please anybody, I have to put God first. He gave me the idea. He’s the one who knows the purpose of my film. I find comfort in that thought. Now I can only put my trust in the Lord. 

This morning while sleeping in, I had a nightmare about having a fight with dad regarding missions trip. I know in real life it would never happen, but that dream disturbed me when I woke up. I wonder if it’s the right thing to apply for mission trip now. But in the end, it’s only my mind that’s giving myself doubts if I really think about it. Anyway, God, be the first in my life. This is my prayer. Everything I have is Yours. Guide me through this year, my work, my everything. Also, help me not be down so much. Overflow me with Your joy. 

Amen