So much time, so little to say.

Yesterday after doing some devo, a time of dancing by myself, and not doing art, I met up with L and J. 

I saw J first at BJs. He treated me appetizers and pozookie for my belated birthday. Our conversation was actually pretty fun, and I am glad he has made a step to explore other churches outside of TPC. I only pray that his faith will no longer be shaken because of church and that he will fully trust the Lord and His word. 

Then I met up with L. I had to listen to dance/club music and dance it out in my house before I saw her. I knew I needed to be pumped up or else her spirit would drag me down. We had a nice time chatting. I don’t know if it was a good idea I told her all the good stuff that’s happening to me at CalArts and about all the hot guys whove been hitting on me. At least she saw that I was doing better than ever. I wish one day before I go back to school I can tell her that I am doing fantastic because of God. 

Now it’s the next day, I’m sitting here listening to music. Somehow I am touched again. I know I didn’t want to meet my friends, but now I am thankful because I can once more see how much God changed me. I thank the Lord. 

Dear Jesus,

Without you I would have been still stuck in the same road. Hurt and bitter about church politics and the world. But you have delivered me from it. I thank you so much for Your strength that allowed me to get myself back together after major heartbreaks. May everyone see the joy in me and give thanks to You. Psalm 40 

-Amen