So much time, so little to say.

My trip up north is about to wrap up and so is 2011. I wonder how he is going to spend the new years eve?? sigh* no time for sour thoughts. I enjoyed being in Berkeley and doing the sketches. After all the stressing out I feel like I did not get as much done as I had planned. Oh well, we always gotta give ourselves more time than expected right? Let’s see, I want to finish the kitchen painting (it will seriously take a long time) and I need to take a couple snap shots of the houses I liked and work on layouts back home. Where did ten days go? I remember always doing art, thinking and now time is all gone. Maybe it’s better to relax a little bit and not beat myself up all the time. On Sunday I am doing a solo for BCCC. Oh well… I hope the song’s words will really stick in my heart. 

I have been thinking, I want to change my attitude. My dislike towards the neighborhood I grew up in. I need to embrace it. It’s part of me. I must not diss my old self now that a new self formed. I need to love my past, love myself then I will know that I can’t fail in the future when my current relationships fall apart. I must not forget what i got. The streets I hung out on. The ghetto schools. It was hot! A change occurred in me I guess. Probably because I listened to Lauryn Hill too much but I must say she is a true inspirational artist, unafraid to stand up for God. and super insightful on life. Anyway, I just looked at some old pictures and it did not bring me as much pain as before. It’s a good sign! :) Then a voice inside me told me that nothing in the past was not as bad as i remembered. Memories is defined by who we are now. It’s all about facing the past, forgiving, and most of all love. Love is so important…