2011 Conclusion
I am pretty glad this year is over. It was a year of real challenge and it is ending unpleasantly also. Too bad! I guess it’s meant to be that way and this is how I am going to remember 2011. Hopefully the count down will make me happier. lol! Crying is the way to end the year I cried the most. Fucking had nightmares again. *sigh* I wonder if i’m just fooling myself with all these encouragements. That somehow we are all more than life. But only people who are small will make me feel small, I’ll just think of it that way.
Maybe the way crap happened during the last day of New Year’s Eve is a reminder that life needs to be better than this. My true weakness as a young girl. As 2011 ends, I want to say goodbye to my broken heart. I want to say goodbye to some of my attitude and be wiser. I no longer want to carry this huge scar with me. So many things I want but I pray for God to be on my side. No matter what happened today, please Lord give me the faith: that 2012 will be different through walking with Jesus Christ. Everything’s better when you walk with the spirit. seriously.
Dear Jesus,
2011 was a battle for me, but I believe 2012 will be a year of change. It’s not about me. It’s about You. May I gain wisdom in my actions, in the way I deal with my past. I know I have to face it but make my heart pure. Help me rejoice in your truth always. Give me Your perspective. Help me be humbled.
Sorry for all the crazy rambling.
Amen!!
